  Tuesday, January 22, 2008 @ 8:08 PM
"to be honest, you're making her lose what's left of her self-esteem.
but she doesn't blame you. she makes mistakes, and you don't like it. that's why you're doing whatever that you're doing. but certain mistakes, you make it sound like she does it all the time. well, maybe yes. but that was in the past. she feels that she's improved alot. and now, somehow, her honest explanations are disregarded and labelled as excuses. that feeling of desperation that swept through her minutes then, has turned into a dry, cracked earth of confidence. it's like she's helpless. seems like no matter what she says is unbelievable. then what is she supposed to do? keep quiet? or try once again to make you listen to her? and so she has flaws and she's suppose to correct herself before anything. so, yes. she is the problem. she knows that's not what you said. but she feels that way. and she's guessing you'll say too bad. how can a problem fix itself? she knows she can be testing at times. but have you ever thought sometimes you are too? have you ever thought of how angry she feels? as much anger as you have on her making the same mistakes. she really feels so low sometimes, she feels that she's not worthy of even speaking. that low. zilch of confidence. negative self-esteem. but then again, too bad. 'cause for you, what you say is just what you say. the complications that happen because of that are her problem 'cause you never mentioned the complications. and so, if to correct herself is what you want, then she will. but do look in the mirror as well. 'cause change has to be equal. not one-sided. till then you'll hear from her. hopefully, changed. and not making the same mistakes." -- ___________ |
