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Tuesday, April 29, 2008 @ 6:56 PM
i hate this feeling.
this feeling that things are just stuck.
stuck at it's worst.
this losing streak.
why am i in a losing streak?
i didn't realise i've entered into a gamble.
i betted everything i have.
and now i am in debt.
in the negative.
the more i try to win it all back, the faster and deeper i fall into the hole.
like quicksand.
and like in quicksand,
i'm stuck there.
knowing that there's nothing i can do.
i can feel myself prepared to lose.
but am i?
am i prepared?
am i going to lose?
i don't want to.
how?