every blog i visit talks about relationships or anything along that line.
people saying "i love you" to their partners on their blogs.
putting up nice pictures with sweet captions at the bottom.
and they looked genuinely happy.

every where i go today, i keep seeing couples.
holding hands. hugging. laughing.
kental couples, mat-minah couples, weird couples.
they seem to be enjoying each others' company.
and they looked genuinely happy.

a friend of mine told me he'd do anything for his girlfriend,
because her happiness is his.
another friend of mine spreads his easy-goingness in his relationship,
and despite the fact that she is second priority, she'll still be the first person on his list.
both couples are genuinely happy.

it's not a pang of jealousy that struck and stuck with me the whole day.
it's a surge of loneliness.
i can easily say i'm going through the hardest phase in my life right now.
meeting demands i need to set for myself to secure a good future.
at the same time, my efforts prove to be futile.
everything is just falling apart.
and i'm exhausted from spreading myself thin.
i am so close to giving my responsibilities up.

and the restlessness just before facing the world head on,
just breaks me even more.
where is the support that i need?; that hug to come in timely.