i've asked Shaz this question (or any variation thereof) so many times:
"B.. why she never layan me ah? why she so action one?"

sometimes i wonder whether she hates me for being with him or hates him for being with me, or just hates him and takes it out on me.

i'm just curious, i mean, we used to be close (not close close).
then now, when she sees me, it's like i don't exist.
???

what can i say? ex-girlfriends.

i can never understand them. i try being friendly, trust me. you can ask Shaz.
first, it was the "stare-at-my-hand-and-look-away" thing from another her.
then now, it's the "don't-look-at-me" thing from this her.

is it me? or is it them?


anyways.........
it is mid-week.
i am unshowered, bored, hungry and in sniff-mode again.
how i wish my casino high-roller cowboy boyfriend doesn't go to his graduation dinner and meets me instead tonight.