i have to immerse myself with life.
or whatever that's left.

i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.
it's so near yet so far.
all this while, i've been walking towards the light with my eyes closed, blinded by the brightness.
now that my eyes have adjusted, and i can see what's ahead and beyond the glare of the light, i'm not sure if i really wanna walk towards and into the light.
i'm not sure whether i'm not sure, or i'm just afraid of what lies beyond because of the stark contrast life will be on the other side.
i know i must finally make a decision.
i can't decide to stay in the middle forever, turn left to bask in the light or turn right to hide my face in the dark.

whatever it is, i shouldn't rush into anything.
i'll take each day as it comes.
and when the answer dawns on me, it'd better be a decision i'm sure of.

for now,
i have to immerse myself with life.
or whatever that's left.