it sure gets psychologically lonely.
i mean the effects are immediate.
it's like that character switch just turned off the moment the decision is made.
for those who have their guesses on my current situation, please withold your thoughts and queries until i am fine enough to answer them.

meanwhile, where do i even start?
ok..

so, ive been having the same song on repeat for like what? 4 days already?
still listening to it.
i usually put a song on repeat for this long if it's like fucken' addictive.
but this time i think it's been on 'cause it's heartfelt.
FTW!! i'm fucken' sappy and emo-shit right now.
i need Ben & J, a nice scenery with good company right now. BADLY.

there's just nothing to look forward to anymore now that he's CTRL + X-ed out of my life.
no school, no events, no work, no parties, no outings.

sharifah sad :(

P.S. honestly, part of me is still wishing that all this is just a terrible nightmare.